How far I have fallen! Why do I choose the way of death, when you are the way to abundant life?
Day in and day out, I have the option to follow you.
Time and again, I choose to turn away.
I choose temporary pleasures over true joy and contentment.
I deceive myself by pretending I have everything under control, when in reality my life is only under control when I put my trust in you.
I ignore the hurting.
I selfishly refuse to share the financial resources you have blessed me with.
I can’t be bothered to crack open your Word, the book that leads to life.
What keeps me from you, Father?
What is better than you? What is strong enough to prevent me from following my true desire?
Hear me now. Forgive me, even as I write these words.
I’m sorry, Lord, for picking the world over you.
I’m sorry for allowing myself to be deceived.
I’m sorry for depending on my own strength to survive, for burdening myself with things that only you have the ability to handle.
I’m sorry for not following you, for being a hypocrite in my words and actions.
I come to you, burdened and broken.
I come, humbled and repentant.
Forgive me, Father! Cleanse me!
Save me from myself. Save me from Satan’s grasp.
My life is not about fulfilling the desires of my flesh.
It’s not about having the most fun.
It’s not about being successful in the eyes of the world.
It’s not about being the best in academics or sports.
It’s not about receiving attention, good or bad.
It’s not about being praised.
My life is about you. I recognize that now, Lord.
Help me to love you like I’m meant to.
Help me to be who you have called me to be.
Help me to live in you, through you, and for you.